Unconditional Love

 

Thank you all for your comments and concern for Marky, he is feeling much better. He is still a bit wobbly but no fever this evening. You're right Aimee, I feel like I need to dip my family and house in a Clorox bath or something. What's with all these weird bugs we keep catching?

Last night, after all the John Mark drama, my little man, Judson, was ready for his mama and I was ready to snuggle up with him as well. You bed time, nursing mamas know what our little ones are like at that time. Only one thing will do the trick...MAMA. It's a wonderful feeling. You know that sound that they give out when they are laying in the bed and they see you getting ready to get in beside them.. That half laugh, half cry with a bit of cooing along side all wrapped up with ultimate anticipation of what's to come. Well last night I was taking it all in with delight. To be loved that much by another human is exhilarating, especially when you have had a day full of guilt because you have blew it so many times with all the other humans in your life. So there I was, all snuggled up with my little man who could care less what my sin was, and all this extra weight that makes me miserable, he loves. I thought "what a feeling to be loved so unconditionally". But is his love really unconditional? No, of course not, I have trained him to love me because I have trained him to need me. But that didn't discourage me because God's spirit then spoke to my heart with a loud voice that reminded me that God's love for me is truly unconditional. He knows my sin, my weight, my guilt, my pride, my filthy rags, and all the other stuff that makes up me and He loves me. I hope that before I grow too old that I can walk with the Lord daily and feel that perfect love as strong as I did for a few moments last night.

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He would send His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure